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Dahulu
Kurindu dahulu... begitu manis... dahulu...

Kangen banget saat-saat dulu. walau saat itu juga ngga lebih baik dari sekarang. tapi terkadang aku merindukan dia-dia-dia. dia si coklat putih yang begitu manis hingga bikin aq pusing. dia si coklat putih yang hilang tiba-tiba. Si coklat putih yang kadang bikin aq tersiksa, tapi membungkus semua kepedihan dengan cinta.

Si coklat putih yang selalu bilang semuanya buat aq. yang kadang mengesalkan dengan bermacam egonya. tapi bersedia membuang semuanya untuk seorang aku. Si coklat putih yang ngga mau ngelakuin banyak hal untuk orang lain, tapi mau ngelakuin itu hanya untuk aq. aku rindu egonya, aku rindu perih itu. dia pergi begitu cepat. si coklat putih itu meninggalkan kenangan tentang betapa manisnya cinta. tapi begitu juga betapa perihnya cinta untuk dinikmati.


Hanya 1 hal yang pengen aku bilang :
"Aku tau aku ngga akan pernah ketemu kamu lagi. aku juga tau perasaan aku ngga sama sama yang dulu. aku hanya ingin mengenang semua manisnya coklat putih itu. aku hanya ingin mengingat indah dirimu tanpa rasa penyesalan, tanpa rasa ingin memiliki. karena kamu indah..."

I LOVE YOU SUAMIKU

Jam 6 pagi
Bangun, sarapan caci maki, sedikit tamparan sebagai pelengkap. Suamiku memang baik, siapkan sarapan untukku setiap hari. Aku istri, jadi aku harus senang dan tersenyum diam.

Jam 6 sore
Suamiku pulang kerja, siapkan makan malam untukku.
Appetizer: Ciuman hangat setrika panas
Main Course: Gores panjang pukulan rotan di dada
Dessert: Caci maki, dan tetes darah untuk pelepas dahaga.
Suamiku sangat baik, makan malam ini dia memberikan aku hadiah: seuntai kalung anjing berduri.

Jam 12 malam
Suamiku tampak bergairah, aku harus melayaninya, menyenangkannya, begitu saran ibuku, dulu. Aku tanggalkan pakaianku satu-satu, dia mulai menciumiku, menggigitiku, ikat aku, dengan pecut. Ia raba tubuhku, lalu ia setubuhi nafsuku, tak lupa sedikit jambakan agar lebih nikmat.
Aku meringis bersama peluh dan tetes darah. Aku anggap aku meringis nikmat. Suamiku memang baik, ia puaskan aku. Permainan malam ini ditambah sedikit variasi: dalam orgasmenya, kepalaku dibenturkan ke pinggir tempat tidur.
Nyawaku pun ikut orgasme.

Jam 6 pagi
Pagi ini begitu tenang, aku tertidur lelap di pembaringan. Suamiku sangat mengerti aku, semalam ia puaskan aku. Ia beri aku kenikmatan yang selama ini tidak kudapatkan. Ia buat nyawaku orgasme, aku terbang ke tempat damai, selamanya.

Dont do anything that You'll regrets

Don't date because you are desperate.
You Deserve sometin more than a desperate partner.

Don't marry because you are miserable.
Get Marriage coz you know you are deserve that happily ever after life.

Don't have kids because you think your genes are superior.
Coz you will fail for it.

Don't philander because you think youare irresistible.
Coz you are NOT!


Don't associate with people you can't trust.
That will make you suffer.

Don't cheat.
Don't lie.
Don't pretend.
Dont hurt anybody!

Don't dictate because you are smarter.
Coz nobody so smart that wont hear.

Don't demand because you are stronger.
Coz afteall, youll know that you are weak.

Don't sleep around because you think youare old enough & know better.
Sometimes baby know how to love bwttwr thwn you.

Don't hurt your kids!
Because loving them is harder.

Don't sell yourself, your family, or your ideals.
Without it you are nothing!

Don't stagnate!
Don't regress.
Don't live in the past.
Coz time can't bring anything or anyone back.

Don't put your life on hold for possibly Mr.Right.
Coz true love is "Loving The "MR. WRONG" so right. Don't throw your life away on absolutelyMr. Wrong because your biological clock is ticking.

Learn a new skill.
Find a new friend.
Start a new career.
Sometimes, there is no race to be won,only a price to be paid for some of life'smore hasty decisions.

To terminate your loneliness, reach outto the homeless.
To feed your nurturing instincts, care forthe needy.
To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy.
Don't bring another life into this world for all the wrong reasons.
Dont do anything that you know you will regret it!

To make yourself happy, pursue yourpassions & be the best of what you canbe.
Simplify your life.
Take away the clutter.

Get rid of destructive elements:
abusivefriends,
nasty habits,
and dangerous liaisons.

Don't abandon your responsibilities but don't overdose on duty.

Don't live life recklessly without thought and feeling for your family.
Be true to yourself.
Don't commit when you are not ready.
Don't keep others waiting needlessly.

Go on that trip. Don't postpone it.

Say those words. Don't let the momentpass.

Do what you have to, even at society'sscorn.

Write poetry.
Love Deeply.
Walk barefoot.
Dance with wild abandon.
Cry at the movies.

Take care of yourself.
Don't wait for someone to take care of you.
You light up your life.
You drive yourself to your destination.
No one completes you - except YOU.

It isn't true that life does not get easierwith age.
It only gets more challenging.

Don't be afraid.
Don't lose your capacity to love.
Pursue your passions.

Live your dreams.
Don't lose faith in God.
Don't grow old.
Just grow YOU!

When you give someone your time, youare giving them a portion of your life that you'll never get back.
Your time is your life.
That is why the greatest gift you can give to someone is your time.
Relationships take time and effort, and the best way to spell love is T-I-M-E because the essence of love is not what we think or do or provide forothers, but how much we give ofourselves

God is good all the time!